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The volumes of our lives

by 27. July 2010 18:53

I was looking at all of my old journals and realized how my life was segmented into volumes, a collection of novels that tell the story of who I am. Sometimes we are fortunate enough to really recognize when one book ends and another book begins. Sometimes they blend together in good and bad ways. Sometimes we are just too busy to see them.

I have spent the last two and a half years doing a lot of self-excavation. Digging, demolishing, rebuilding. It has been grueling to say the least. There have been a half a dozen things that have loomed over me for much of this time. These things were and are heavy to carry. There have been many times that I felt like giving up, angry at the world for dealing me this hand. I would have been such a fool for giving up then.

The funny thing is that in our novels of life we never know how the current will end and the next will begin.

I am now in a place where many of the things I have been fighting are finally coming to an end. How much wiser I am. I would have missed all of this knowledge and experience. I see peace in the distance, a cool fresh breeze on a warm summer day.

I am seeing one book end and another begin, a brighter book. This book will not be without trouble, but maybe I can learn one thing from all of this. I will get through this. The story always continues. We just have to accept the story we have, learn from it, grow through it, and know that we can make it through it.

I am at a place that I would not trade anything for what I had to go through. It is what brought me here, moodyminds. I have already changed lives and that is worth every bit of the last two years.
Don’t give up. Keep hope.

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Education | Mindfulness | Self Help

When is too much too much?

by 24. June 2010 16:56

I will be the first to admit that living with someone who has a mood disorder; bipolar disorder, anxiety, depression, schizophrenia is not easy. Wow! That was an understatement. So when is enough, enough? When should the patient have to face consequences of what they are doing? Should a family kick them out? Let's get a discussion going. Let me know what you think. 

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Education | Asking You

I am okay

by 17. November 2008 15:31
Hello everyone.  I am okay.

The other night was one of the darkest nights in my life.  I sat in bed, curled up in a ball, because I knew I was safe as long as I did not move.  I passed out around 4:30am.

The major victory was that I survived.  I have known of this cliff that so many have fallen from, that night I saw the cliff.

God had something to show me.

Saturday night I started having this pain in my belly.  It got much worse and woke me up at 6:00am Sunday morning.  I ended up in the hospital having an emergency appendectomy. Later that night I was spending some time praying and realized something amazing.  God can take us whenever he wants.  This next breath is a gift.  I could have gone back to sleep Sunday morning.  I could have waited to go to the doctor the next day.  God moved me to go and I am here today because of it.

He is not done with me here.

Please know that when you or a loved one is in the state I was Friday night, the behaviors are symptomatic.  They are not who you or your loved one truly is.  The most important thing to do is to keep them safe.  Reason will return.  Logic will come later.  At that moment, listen and keep them safe.  take their keys, their meds, anything that is dangerous.  Don't let them be alone.

Today I am good.  I have a couple of holes in my stomach.  I have trimmed a little weight, not my intention to do it organ at a time :)

I am sure that God is going to use me.

Thank you for all of your thoughts and prayers.

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Education | My Moody Mind

When Worry Gets Out of Control

by 24. October 2008 11:20
The following information was provided by SUMMIT CENTER FOR BEHAVIORAL SCIENCES.
 
Generalized Anxiety Disorder

People with anxiety disorders feel extremely fearful and unsure. Most people feel anxious about something for a short time now and again, but people with anxiety disorders feel this way most of the time. Their fears and worries make it hard for them to do everyday tasks. About 18% of American adults have anxiety disorders. Children also may have them.

Treatment is available for people with anxiety disorders. Researchers are also looking for new treatments that will help relieve symptoms.

This article is about one kind of anxiety disorder called generalized anxiety disorder, or GAD. For information about other kinds of anxiety disorders, please click on the articles on the left side of your screen.

Generalized Anxiety Disorder

All of us worry about things like health, money, or family problems at one time or another. But people with GAD are extremely worried about these and many other things, even when there is little or no reason to worry about them. They may be very anxious about just getting through the day. They think things will always go badly. At times, worrying keeps people with GAD from doing everyday tasks.

People with GAD:

  • worry very much about everyday things for at least six months, even if there is little or no reason to worry about them
  • can't control their constant worries
  • know that they worry much more than they should
  • can't relax
  • have a hard time concentrating
  • are easily startled
  • have trouble falling asleep or staying asleep
Common body symptoms are:
  • feeling tired for no reason
  • headaches
  • muscle tension and aches
  • having a hard time swallowing
  • trembling or twitching
  • being irritable
  • sweating
  • nausea
  • feeling lightheaded
  • feeling out of breath
  • having to go to the bathroom a lot
  • hot flashes
When does GAD start?

GAD develops slowly. It often starts during the time between childhood and middle age. Symptoms may get better or worse at different times, and often are worse during times of stress.

People with GAD may visit a doctor many times before they find out they have this disorder. They ask their doctors to help them with the signs of GAD, such as headaches or trouble falling asleep, but don't always get the help they need right away. It may take doctors some time to be sure that a person has GAD instead of something else.

Is there help?

There is help for people with GAD. The first step is to go to a doctor or health clinic to talk about symptoms. People who think they have GAD may want to bring this booklet to the doctor to help them talk about the symptoms in it. The doctor will do an exam to make sure that another physical problem isn't causing the symptoms. The doctor may make a referral to a mental health specialist.

Doctors may prescribe medication to help relieve GAD. It's important to know that some of these medicines may take a few weeks to start working. In most states only a medical doctor (a family doctor or psychiatrist) can prescribe medications.

The kinds of medicines used to treat GAD are listed below. Some are used to treat other problems, such as depression, but also are helpful for GAD:

  • antidepressants
  • anti-anxiety medicines
  • beta blockers
 
Doctors also may ask people with GAD to go to therapy with a licensed social worker, psychologist, or psychiatrist. This treatment can help people with GAD feel less anxious and fearful.

There is no cure for GAD yet, but treatments can give relief to people who have it and help them live a more normal life.

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Education | Anxiety